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I have always suspected that their behavior was a test and that misbehavior was often a way of showing their teachers that they trusted them to care no matter what. This post card articulated what my children over the years have not been able to say. I promise to break down as many walls as possible, for the rest of my life.
more than any one I have read before has struck a chord deep within. I have been struggling with suicide ideation for the last several months, to the point that I just needed to figure out how to do it 'just right', I guess I wanted it to be beautiful and poignant. The line of that poem "there are no beautiful suicides" is enough to convince me this life, as hard as it is, is worth living. And maybe this knowledge will give me the courage to finally put postage on the secret I've been wanting to send for a long time.
I was in a horrible abusive 3-year relationship with my ex-boyrfriend. I was trying to convince myself I could change him once things started going bad because I couldn't accpet I made such a bad love choice. I remember for every birthday I had, every shooting star I saw, every silly little wish urban legend there is - I wished for "us to just be happy" - three years I did this and kept trying to fool myself that love would change this man. These teenage years are supposed to be filled with friendships, parties, relationships. I'm too afraid to step outside into the unknown world, so I spend all of my time online, pretending to be someone else, someone who's funny and affectionate and not a total screw up. My parents worry all the time because I refuse to socialize with the other kids in my street. They worry because I've built such an indestructible wall around me that they think they'll never be able to see me again. I read every postcard, imagining the excitement of the owner of each one when they would see their secrets finally set free. I began to lose hope, but as I reached the bottom of the page I saw it. When I saw my postcard on your site (Life Is So Much Easier When It's Pixelated) I was breathless. But I guess I'll never be able to receive the love and attention I so desperately crave until I learn to love myself. Today, for the first time in 6 months I walked outside and said hello to the first person I saw.
I made a postcard recently ("it's a new year"), and to my surprise I found it on the site. To be perfectly candid, when I made the postcard it was only on a whim. I was looking through some pictures from a vacation and one of them struck me as a postsecret picture. So I invented this "secret" to go along with it simply for the sake of art. During mailing, my postcard was slightly damaged and some of the copy had been ripped off. When I saw my card, the remaining part of the card was more important to me than what I had written. On that card I saw an actual secret, one that I had never intended to mail in.
But the best part for me was hearing from many of the brave people who have shared their secrets, and listening to the stories from those who have found solace and compassion in them. After the show closed, I was removing the postcards from the space when I discovered that someone had added their own secret to the display surreptitiously. The next PostSecret exhibition will be at the Reading Public Museum. I am currently looking for other opportunities to show the postcards in museums and in nontraditional ways. I would like to display the postcards at night in a jewelry store and also project the images onto a drive-in movie screen.
You are invited to anonymously contribute your secrets to PostSecret. Each secret can be a regret, hope, funny experience, unseen kindness, fantasy, belief, fear, betrayal, erotic desire, feeling, confession, or childhood humiliation. Reveal anything - as long as it is true and you have never shared it with anyone before. Create your 4-by-6-inch postcards out of any mailable material. If you want to share two or more secrets, use multiple postcards. Put your complete secret and image on one side of the postcard. If your secret is posted, please consider mailing in a follow-up postcard, letter or email describing the effect, if any, the experience had on your life. Mail your secrets to: PostSecret 13345 Copper Ridge Rd Germantown, Maryland USA 20874-3454 Legal Notice By submitting information to PostSecret, you grant PostSecret a perpetual, royalty-free license to use, reproduce, modify, publish, distribute, and otherwise exercise all copyright and publicity rights with respect to that information at its sole discretion, including storing it on PostSecret servers and incorporating it in other works in any media now known or later developed including without limitation published books. If you do not wish to grant PostSecret these rights, it is suggested that you do not submit information to this website. PostSecret reserves the right to select, edit and arrange submissions, and to remove information from the PostSecret website at any time at its sole discretion. No image from this site may be used for any purpose without expressed written authorization, with one exception;
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